Posts Tagged ‘Life’

Goodbye My Lover – James Blunt

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
‘Cause I saw the end before we’d begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what’s mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won’t stop there,
I am here for you if you’d only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I’ve kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I’ve been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when i wake,
You can’t break my spirit – it’s my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I’ve seen you cry, I’ve seen you smile.
I’ve watched you sleeping for a while.
I’d be the father of your child.
I’d spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We’ve had our doubts but now we’re fine,
And I love you, I swear that’s true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I’m asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I’m kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I’m so hollow, baby, I’m so hollow.
I’m so, I’m so, I’m so hollow.
I’m so hollow, baby, I’m so hollow.
I’m so, I’m so, I’m so hollow.

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Home, sweet home.

I’m sitting down at this dining table, having lamb steak that I cooked myself, at home, my home, my very own first home. ūüėÄ Yip. Sun has bought himself his first home all by himself.

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Pondering and reflecting. 

Looking back 7 years when I first came to this country from an ordinary but well educated, traditional, middle class Chinese family in mainland China, this country was a wonderland. And It has been rather eventful.

From the time when I took the homestay’s car out for a drive when they weren’t home just a week after I arrived in the country, and thought it was quite alright, to¬†the point where the homestay mother at-the-time thought it was also quite alright to take my US dollars that was meant to be my living expenses and fled to Australia.

From the point where I left the English Language school where it was a total scam set up by the agent who was responsible for sending me abroad to gaining an A bursary and awarded scholarships upon leaving high school and sending myself to University of Auckland.

From the point where I was awarded with a Faculty of Science Scholarship, developed my first real world computer application and published a paper in ACM, to coming the top in Microsoft ImagineCup 2005 in the country, to graduating with my BCom/BSc last year and landed on my first full time job with NZTC.

From the point where my job application for a position at Microsoft HQ in Seattle was turned down in the VERY LAST¬†phase of the¬†interview, to where I was offered jobs with three different I.T. companies here in N.Z, to moving down to Wellington and started with Intergen¬†and bought the house I’m sitting in typing this up this very second.

It surely has been life changing 7 years for this Chinese lad¬†thriving in New Zealand, and he surely is proud of what he’s achieved¬†thus far and hoping to do better in what he fell short in the past.

But wait, there is more Рwhat is life all about?

This is a question I’ve asked myself many many many time since I was little. Remember back at primary school in China, I was made, as well as other unfortunate souls, to write about what I wanted to do/be when I grow up. Just like many of my peers, this was probably the last thing on our mind at the time. But it kept coming back to me and poking me from beind and saying “So what IS IT that you wanna be when you grow up?” It worried me on the odd ocassions.

Not till so long ago in the last couple of years at uni, I felt rather miserable because I hadn’t quite figured out what was it that I wanted out of my life. I thought to myself, life isn’t about just doing a job and make a living (knowing that I do need to support myself somehow) but it must be more than just that. It should be about doing something I’m really passionate towards and enthused about. So I talked to and debated with all sorts people from different walks in life; lecturers at uni, the cleaners at the apartment I stayed at, colleagues, my bike gangs,¬†random people¬†on the net, ¬†ones I disliked, ones I cared about and one I had absolutely nothing to do with, all in a goal of searching for the ultimate profession that I’d have enjoyed doing for the rest of my life.¬†¬†The search, however, ¬†ended in vain.

But what I have came to realise from the search is, it’s not about¬†WHAT I do. It doesn’t really matter what I do, what matters is HOW I do it. Whatever I do, I do it with my full heart and soul, do it with an attitude of “I haven’t got a second chance and I’ll give it my best shot at it”, If I look back at in my life, I’m competitive by nature. I’ve always¬†been wanting to¬†do anything and everything better than my peers.

I quite agree with what Bill Clinton said in his autobiograhy “My Life” about The necessity of list short, medium and long term life goals, then categorising them in order of their importance, with the A group being the most important, the B group next, and the C the last, then listing under each goal specific activites designed to achieve them.

Much like a faithful Christain without being able to read the bible at least once in his life, a man living through his life without knowing what his dreams are,  is indeed unfortunate. I very much admire a friend Anna. She gave up her comfortable and supposedly well paid job at a bank and went with her dream; becoming a makeup artist and hairdresser.

Just like what I wrote on Anna’s blog, the lucky ones get to know what their dreams are, the luckier ones get to do what they dream about, and luckiest ones get to realise their dreams. So what about you?

Remember, whenever there is hope, there is life.

Never stop dreaming and never ever stop chasing dreams, because this is life really about.

Last Yum-cha in Auckland

This really wasn’t a planned farewell catch-up for me… Apologies for those of you I couldn’t get to saying bye. But please do give me a buzz when you to come Wellington for a visit next time.

Phil, Tim, Sun and Bel

Phil, Jackie, Tim and me

Sunrise :D

First of all, I’d like to say thanks for your relentless support for my blog, as of today I have received the grand total of 1 comment. (hooray!!!), and it was one word,¬†“Cool!” from LirenūüėÄ Yip, that pretty much sums up my blog. ūüėõ¬†Thanks for the sccinctness Liren, and just for that the prize of “The-first-to-leave-a-comment-on-sundium.wordpress.com” goes to you!!! Congratulations !!! (*clapping sound*)

¬†Peter¬†was telling me the other day “Sun, you suck at keeping a blog. :P”.¬†I paused for a sec and replied “Yeah I know… but when I had the time, I’d rather be relaxing on the beach than sitting in front of a computer and writing about how much I enjoy my life”.

¬†Then why am I writing again then? because I have some news to share with you all today. ūüėÄ Today I handed in my resignation letter with¬†NZTC and/or¬†eceLearn and am to embark on a new journey in early June with Intergen in Wellington. Yip Sun is on the move again.

Why moving? Intergen¬†is one of the best MS shops in the country you can find. I know (about) quite a number of (ex-)Intergenites. One thing I can say about them is, they live and breathe what they do. They have a real passion towards using technologies to create values for businesses, and that,¬† is exactly what I want to do with my life for the next few years. Just to name a few, Jeremy Boyd, John-Daniel Trask, Adam Green, Andrew Tokeley. Even Chris Auld¬†has joined Intergen, even Nigel Parker¬†used to work for intergen too…¬†All these folks are very smart and nice (maybe not Chris on the nice part :P), they are¬†well known and respected in the community. These are the people I’m looking up to…

 I have been planning on blogging about quite a few things recently actually, things like

1. embedding swf in html pages

2. IE7 and FF 2.* on javascript

3. Recursion V.S. Loops

4. Considerations before creating a new service in a S.O.A. world.

5. Service overloading???

6. WCF experience

Watch this space…. ūüėÄ

Sytem.Console.WriteLine(“Hello World!”);

Welcome to my blog. Finally I sat down and started setting up a blog. My experience (not much yet really) with wordpress is pretty good, awesome user experience, simply to understand and easy to use. 

Introduction

Guess a little information about myself wouldn’t do much harm on my “Hello World!” post. My name is Jian Sun, though known as Sun. it is actually pronounced “sooooooon”. I’m software developer working for a Microsoft ISV based in Auckland, New Zealand. I like coding, being able to tell a machine what to do has fascinated me ever since I was little. I like poking my nose around new technologies and making use of them, it gives me great satisfaction. I enjoy alpine mountaineering, tramping, diving and going nut on my zx6r (for those of you who don’t know what this is, it’s a kawasaki sport bike, known as Ninja). Unlike most people I’m not really into any racket or ball sports/games, except Pingpong it’s in the genes man ūüėÄ

Blogging

The whole idea of blogging never really appealed to me. But somehow after had a brief conversation with Adam Green yesterday, I am sitting here setting up a blog for myself. This will be a social blog, like what most folks do on MySpace. This will also be a platform where I share my thoughts on some of the technologies I explore. Watch this space! ūüôā